Changing of the Season
I don't know how I ended up at this sight tonight. You've been on my mind and heart for days so it came as no surprise really to end up here revisiting the stories from the people that love you.
Some days it seems like just yesterday when you were taken from us. I'll open a drawer and instantly be drawn to a piece of paper with your handwriting on it. You are still very much with us in the office. I'll be working on something that's frustrating and I'll say Ok Lorie help me settle down and feel peace about this. It works every time too, your presence is all over my desk. I still look at your pictures on the computer.
I miss you so much.
posted by kb @ 2:55 PM
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LORIE, JUST LOGGED INTO TO "YOUR" WEBSITE BECAUSE I WAS LISTENING TO ONE OF YOU FAVORITE SONGS FROM WHEN WE WERE TEENAGERS. "HEAVAN" BY BRAN ADAMS.
WE MISS YOU A BUNCH LORIE AND YOUR GIRLS ARE JUST BEAUTIFUL.
Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. Your "Happy Place" and "Bubblehead" I still hear your voice and see the expression on your face. I can't begin to tell you how much we ALL miss you and need you.
I can't wait to see you again my friend.
It has been almost a year to the day. Although I can keep a straight face and not tear up in front of mom and dad, Carmen and Guero, inside I am a complete wreck. They say that time heals everything, but it hurts today just as it did yesterday. I will stop crying now and go to my happy place. Just wanted to tell you that I miss you.
PS Hannah is scared of me (when "I" say no I mean it, everyone else gives her what she wants) Faithie is the mirror image of you. She has a big heart to fill, but I know she will be just fine.
Here is some lyrics from a country song, kind of reminds me of you.
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe you're gone
It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
The death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the pain that I've been through
Just knowing no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today
I still look at my phone when I get to work every morning and hope that the flashing light means there's a message from you like there always used to be. What I wouldn't do for one last conversation with you, Lorie. I thank God every day for the beautiful gift of life in Faithie and Hannah. I see Faithie and think "she could not look any more like her mom". Not true, everyday she resembles you more and more. Hannah is just as beautiful as her sister. Your husband is a great Daddy. He lives for his daughters. I know you would be very proud. A year ago tomorrow I received a call from Guero that changed our entire lives. I still don't understand it and don't know that I ever will. The pain is overwhelming and just stronger than me sometimes. Como te estrano. Ni un dia paso sin pensar en ti. Sin desear de hablar contigo. An pasado tantas cosas, cosas que normalmente tu me darias consejos. Busco resignasion y no lo e podido encontrar. Te quiero muchisimo y espero que llegue el dia en que nos puedamos reunir.
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